Delivered from suicide Week 16, 2026

 Ps 89:1(KJV)  I will sing of the mercies of the LORD for ever: with my mouth will I make known thy faithfulness to all generations. 

I am Mr. I. C, I ,am 46 years old, and a health worker who gives thanks to God Almighty for miraculously saving my life! I would have taken my own life and been forever doomed but for his mercies. I want to return all praise to the Lord Almighty for His unfailing love. A love that would not let me go.

October 3^rd, 2023 is a day I will never forget. It was a day I unfortunately had an amputation of one of my legs. A devastating disease left the health team with no option but amputation to save my life. Sadly, after the procedure, I could not get the full complement of the pain medication as I had underlying kidney problems, and so began a journey of perpetual pain and misery. I had had a kidney transplant following chronic kidney disease. But that is a story for another day. Every twitch of the leg, every change in position, was filled with excruciating pain. All 24 hours of the day - no reprieve.  Sleep fled from me, and nothing could comfort me.

By the 3^rd day, I could not take it anymore and resolved to end it all. Being a health worker, the know-how to kill myself was not a problem, and a firm plan of action had already formed in my heart. I am married to an angel of a woman. She is so meek, and when I would speak out or respond harshly, her response was always a meek and quiet spirit. I never let her know I intended to end it all.

The next day was the D- day and I sent my loving, innocent wife on an errand. She got someone, a friend, to tend me while she was away, and I conveniently sent him on an errand as well. Just one injection into my intravenous line would end it all, and quickly too.

Just when I was about to execute my plan, a sister, a fellow health worker whom I had interacted with for basically three times in the last two years, suddenly walked into the ward for a visit! I assumed it was a quick visit, but she got a seat and sat down. smiling sheepishly and trying to start a conversation.

Irritated, I answered in only monosyllables and silence, but she was not deterred. She kept on trying to make conversation, broke out in songs, and just would not leave! Not long afterwards, she began praying. Even when she got a call from her son’s school to come and pick up her child, she still stayed behind until my wife returned! I was so pissed off.

But that night, I managed to fall asleep, and the Lord ministered to me and reminded me of the destination I was heading.  If not for God… 

Ps 103:1-4 (ESV)  Bless the LORD, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name! Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy

CJ is a doctor in the South East

The use of soldiers Week 15, 2026

 

So the soldiers are sinning and should all return to the barracks, no, to the prayer room.

That is not what I said at all. You spoke of government ineptitude or complicity. We never spoke about soldiers. Soldiers are meant to protect lives even if it means killing...

Are you not speaking with two sides of your mouth? First, you say, “Do not kill them but pray for them.” Now you say soldiers should kill them. I thought you were a pacifist.

No! That is not the Christian position at all. For rulers are not a terror to good conduct, but to bad. Would you have no fear of the one who is in authority? Then do what is good, and you will receive his approval, for he is God's servant for your good. But if you do wrong, be afraid, for he does not bear the sword in vain. For he is the servant of God, an avenger who carries out God's wrath on the wrongdoer. Rom 13:3-14(ESV)  Government is created by God, and soldiers are anointed to carry out God’s wrath on the wrongdoer. Gen 9:6(ESV)  Whoever sheds the blood of man, by man shall his blood be shed, for God made man in his own image is valid until this day. I am no pacifist.

I thought you were a New Testament man who follows the examples of Christ and the apostles.

But I am my brother. I am. Have you not noticed the use of soldiers in Paul’s journey?)  As the people were trying to kill Paul, the officer in charge of the Roman soldiers received a report that all Jerusalem was rioting. Immediately, he took some soldiers and officers and charged the crowd. When the crowd saw the officer and the soldiers, they stopped beating Paul. Act 21:31-32(GW Not only this time, but when over 40 Jews banded themselves together to kill Paul, and he knew of it, he sent information to the commanding officer who took armed men to travel with Paul and give him protection. Then he called two of the centurions and said, “Get ready two hundred soldiers, with seventy horsemen and two hundred spearmen to go as far as Caesarea at the third hour of the night. Also provide mounts for Paul to ride and bring him safely to Felix the governor.” Act 23:23-24(ESV)  There is enough scriptural precedent for that in the New Testament.

Well, we are forming a militia with an oath to protect people’s lives. We have been advised to pray but also defend ourselves. We have the mandate to kill.

Given by whom? Which government has conscripted you? Can’t you see it is a desire to fight for yourself that has come upon you?  Make use of your rights as a citizen to protect yourself from abuse. God expects that too. Act 22:25, 29(ESV)  But when they had stretched him out for the whips, Paul said to the centurion who was standing by, “Is it lawful for you to flog a man who is a Roman citizen and uncondemned?” So those who were about to examine him withdrew from him immediately, and the tribune also was afraid, for he realized that Paul was a Roman citizen and that he had bound him.  If however despite our use of legal rights and appeal to authority the very persons anointed by God to protect us fail us we must, we must avoid taking the laws into our own hands. Rom 8:36-37(ESV)  As it is written, “For your sake we are being killed all the day long; we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.”  No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Victory is not that we survived at all costs. Victory is that we represented Jesus Christ at all costs. Php 1:21(ESV)  For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain. 

The security threat Week 14, 2026

 

How does the Christian respond to security threats? The wanton killings and the ineptitude or complicity of the government are open sores. Ps 44:22(ESV) Yet for your sake we are killed all the day long; we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.

See, we must understand the devil’s purpose in coming with sustained violence. The purpose is far deeper than maiming or killing the body. Job 2:4-5(ESV)  Then Satan answered the LORD and said, “Skin for skin! All that a man has he will give for his life.  But stretch out your hand and touch his bone and his flesh, and he will curse you to your face.” It is Satan’s intention that we will curse God and abandon Christlikeness in the midst of these sufferings. In essence, removing Christ from Christian expression.

I don’t need theology. I want practical steps in the face of this massacre. How do we react?

First, be proactive. Be security conscious.  So the city was filled with the confusion, and they rushed together into the theater, dragging with them Gaius and Aristarchus, Macedonians who were Paul's companions in travel. But when Paul wished to go in among the crowd, the disciples would not let him Act 19:29-30(ESV). Do not deliberately go into danger. This was exactly the attitude of Jesus Christ, whom we must imitate. After this Jesus went about in Galilee. He would not go about in Judea, because the Jews were seeking to kill him. Jn7:1(ESV) 

You need information in advance for that. What do I do when they come with machetes and guns? I have every right to defend myself. It is very legal to own a gun, you know.

I would encourage you to get away and hide. No, don’t look at me like that. I know you are a brave and strong man. It is not about courage to face the enemy physically, but courage to do what Jesus Christ did and taught. And behold, one of those who were with Jesus stretched out his hand and drew his sword and struck the servant of the high priest and cut off his ear. Then Jesus said to him, “Put your sword back into its place. For all who take the sword will perish by the sword. Do you think that I cannot appeal to my Father, and he will at once send me more than twelve legions of angels? Mt 26:51-53(ESV)  If in this life and death situation, Jesus rebuked the use of physical force, it means He never wants us to do it. When He said all who take up the sword, He meant all, including Christians.

We must all die somehow. You mean the anointing of Samson is not there? That fire can no longer come down from heaven to defend the Elijahs of today?

Please don’t. I sincerely beg you. And seeing, His disciples James and John said, Lord, do You desire that we command fire to come down from Heaven and consume them, even as Elijah did? But He turned and rebuked them and said, You do not know of what spirit you are. For the Son of Man has not come to destroy men's lives, but to save. And they went to another village. Lk 9:54-56(MKJV) Just as Steven did, pray also for these evil men to repent. I beg you to remember the real stakes in this whole conflict. It is not about saving my life on earth but representing Jesus Christ accurately, whether by life or by death. My deep desire and hope is that I shall never fail in my duty, but that at all times, and especially right now, I shall be full of courage, so that with my whole being I shall bring honor to Christ, whether I live or die Php 1:20(GNB) . 

Making new wine Week 13, 2026

 

One of the tragedies of troubled marriages is the insistence by each party, “I have done my bit, taken more than my fair share of the beating. Yes, I may not be perfect, but I certainly don’t deserve this…”  “We” has become “I”. There is hope if even one will heed the counsel in Jn 2:5(ESV)  His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.”  Climb down from your assumed position and take the place of a servant. Take off your rights toga and lordship mantra. Do whatever Jesus says.  Incidentally, this is the last recorded statement of Mary, the mother of our Lord, in the scriptures. If you would honour her, then obey her last instruction in scripture.

In this case His instruction seems foolish. Jn 2:7(ESV)  Jesus said to the servants, “Fill the jars with water.” And they filled them up to the brim.  What instructions Jesus would give are foolish to the world, but thankfully, by obeying and obeying to the full, we have victory. 2Cor 10:6(ESV)  being ready to punish every disobedience, when your obedience is complete. Complete obedience is the prerequisite. Has He said, “Go and kneel to your spouse and beg forgiveness”?  Do not stand and ask forgiveness. Don’t say “If there is any way I have offended you...”  Obey, and do it to the brim. 1Cor 1:25(ESV)  For the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men. To make new wine of marriage, to get God’s miracle in any situation, present yourself as a servant, listen to what Jesus says, and do it. Stop listening to so-called experts who neither believe in the permanence of marriage nor in the power of His word. Guaranteed is His promise in 1Pt 3:1-2(ESV)  Likewise, wives, be subject to your own husbands, so that even if some do not obey the word, they may be won without a word by the conduct of their wives, when they see your respectful and pure conduct.  If it works for women by the power of God, it works for men also. He has said: Good sense makes one slow to anger, and it is his glory to overlook an offense Prov 19:11(ESV). Do not take note, remark, and harp on the offences of the other. Put on then, as God's chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive Col 3:12-13(ESV). 

“I have been doing this and am frustrated. I quit!” I hear you say. Wait patiently, having fully obeyed, beware self-imposed timelines. Heb 10:35-36(ESV)  Therefore do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised. The very day the King in Israel declared in 2Kgs6:33(ESV) “This trouble is from the LORD! Why should I wait for the LORD any longer?”  God said in 2Kgs7:1(ESV)  But Elisha said, “Hear the word of the LORD: thus says the LORD, Tomorrow about this time a seah of fine flour shall be sold for a shekel, and two seahs of barley for a shekel, at the gate of Samaria.”  Wait, I say in perfect obedience. It is after full obedience that the next set of instructions comes, and as that is also done, the water is now found to be wine. Sweet new wine. Jn 2:11(ESV)  This, the first of his signs, Jesus did at Cana in Galilee, and manifested his glory. And his disciples believed in him. He will again manifest His glory in you

MY JOURNEY FROM DARKNESS TO LIGHT WEEK 12, 2026

 I was born on March 19, 1964, in Enugu, Nigeria, into an Anglican Church family. My father, a knight of St Christopher, Lay Reader, and dedicated choir master at St. Bartlomew's  Church, Asata, Enugu, for 22 years, instilled in me a sense of spirituality from a young age. I became a chorister in 1974. 

The war for my soul raged fiercely in the spiritual realms, and I was oblivious to the battle. It began in 1980, when a mysterious affliction seized me, defying medical explanation. I collapsed, struck down as if by a stroke, half my body paralyzed, my life hanging in the balance. My parents, gripped by panic and anxiety, sought answers from a renowned traditional diviner at Awkuzu, who consulted the ancient spirits of the great beyond. The verdict was damning: my family's house in Awgbu, our ancestral village, was built on a spiritual crossroads, obstructing the movement of powerful elemental spirits. Their wrath had been provoked, and I was the unfortunate victim. The diviner's words sent a shiver down my spine: "A sacrifice must be made to appease them, lest the affliction worsen." In desperation, my father agreed to offer the required sacrifice, even as we set out for Abagana. Miraculously, as we arrived, the symptoms vanished, leaving me bewildered and confused. The ritual was performed, and for a time, the storm subsided. But the reprieve was short-lived. By 1986, the dreams began – dark, unsettling visions of a mysterious being leading me into the depths of the forest, teaching me the secrets of roots and herbs. Little did I know, the battle for my soul had only just begun...

As I grew older, these dreams became more frequent and intense, and I became confused. I turned to native doctors, seeking answers, and in 1986, I was initiated into the native doctor cult. My father, who believed in "giving to Caesar what belonged to Caesar and to God what belonged to God," had actually introduced me to consulting native doctors. I rose through the ranks, acquiring charms and abilities that gave me power and control over others.

# I had "Obia-le-gbum, gbue onwe ya" - a charm that sent back deadly intentions and projectiles to my enemies .

 # "Mba ana abalu agu" - a charm that silenced critics and earned me instant praise in hostile environs. 

# "Igba enwo" - a protective shield that prevented opposing forces/wizards or cultists from summoning my image in a mirror, globes or basins of water

 These charms gave me frightening powers, including the ability to strike my chest in annoyance and unleash evil spiritual pins with dire consequences and no medical solutions on those who provoked me - a power known as "igha pin." ..... amongst many others.  Moving through these levels also came with restrictions.... some of which were.... not being able to eat certain foods with people, not being able to share some things with people, strict instructions on how to bathe for certain charms to work and abstinence from seeing dead bodies. But with each new power, I found myself wanting more. I even had a charm that would attract patronage for business goods and services. I was power-drunk, and my desire for more power led me to seek the next level of "ili amosu" ...... astral projection and the ability to hear what people were discussing about me from miles away. However, the native doctor hesitated to initiate me, citing my tender heart as potential for murderous acts and wickedness as the power there was too great. 

 It was 1988, and my life was about to take a dramatic turn. My late younger sister, may her soul rest in peace, had attended a crusade led by late Dr. Ibeneme and experienced a miraculous transformation in weight loss , for saying she was obese would be an understatement. I was shocked and intrigued and wanted this great power that could effect such miraculous change almost instantly. My pursuit of power led me to accept an invite from my late aunt, Prof Josephine Okoli,  to late Dr. Friday Nwatu's New Life Holy Ghost ministry program. I arrived at the program, determined to answer the altar call, not for Jesus, but for power. Bro Obi Onubogu, now Bishop, ministered, and I barely concentrated on the message😂... while waiting for the power at the altar call. I went forward at the altar call but little did I know that a seed had been planted in me. I found myself going for fellowships and bible studies in places like Deeper life, Full gospel business men's fellowship, Faith clinic etc. God used these to draw me closer to Himself and I began to develop a genuine interest and hunger for Him....I subsequently surrendered to God. 2Cor 5:17  Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. 

My days in the devil's camp were fraught with deprivations and restrictions in the quest for power, and so when in my early days as a believer l saw Christians in some of the places l fellowshipped in doing some rigorous fasting and "tonguing," l I decided to embark on 7 days straight fasting. I was downcast and discouraged when I absentmindedly and unwittingly broke it with banana and groundnuts at IMT Abakiliki Rd, Enugu, but God corrected me: "Power is not just by fasting, but by prayer, obedience, and commitment to My Word and submission and total reliance on Me." It's not by force fasting.  

I surrendered, and He transformed me. Today, I don't seek power, but His presence, and I have seen God using me to impact lives in various missions and in the outreach ministry He has given me: JAYKOBEZ INTERNATIONAL FOUNDATION ministry, while worshiping with my family in The Anglican Communion. It's been a humbling and exciting journey of faith, from extreme darkness.... while in the shadows of the church... to the glorious light of CHRIST's salvation. I do not know where the next wind of the Holy Spirit will blow me to.....but I eagerly and submissively look forward to it.....saying: "Here I am, use me, Lord."

At The Master's Command

Rev Kanayo Ejikeme Madichie.

Has the wine run out? Week 11, 2026

 

It need not come to physical or verbal abuse, but may just show in tactical avoidance of each other, repeated removal of the hand placed on the body of the spouse. Has “my hubby” now changed to “foolish man, you are a devil. I don’t know why I married you in the first place,” has the wine run out? When “my darling” becomes “this wicked woman, you are a burden on me” we need to ask ‘Has the wine run out? Jn 2:3 (ESV)  When the wine ran out, the mother of Jesus said to him, “They have no wine.” At some point in time in the marriage journey, the wine of affectionate care, the wine of passionate love (if it was ever there) may run out. Have you experienced it? God is in the business of restoration as in John's account.

Jn 2:2(ESV)  Jesus also was invited to the wedding with his disciples. He is the One who can change the situation, not any formula, injection of funds, or even well-meaning intervention by concerned people. Jesus Christ alone does this miracle.  The first thing is to invite Jesus into the marriage relationship. You see, Jesus Christ never forces His way into any life. Rev 3:20 (ESV)  Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me.  Have you consciously pleaded with Him to come in? His answer is “Yes”.  The second thing is to acknowledge there is a problem. Not saying we are going through a phase, this is always how it is at this stage in marriage of everybody. No, no, no. call it what it really is. Do not be in denial. Jn 2:3 (ESV)  When the wine ran out, the mother of Jesus said to him, “They have no wine.” However, who you tell it to is very important. Here, Jesus Christ is the one told about it. Ahasuerus told his advisers about a marriage issue that had become elevated to a national matter. He sought the law on the matter. Law didn’t solve his marriage problems, but compounded it which he regretted. Est 2:1(GW)  Later, when King Xerxes got over his raging anger, he remembered Vashti, what she had done, and what had been decided against her. You will, too, if the law and divorce become your arbiter. Go to Jesus Christ in the pain. You who see the wine has run out in someone’s marriage, take it to Jesus as Mary did. No gossiping. Prov 17:9(ISV)  Anyone who overlooks an offense promotes love, but someone who gossips separates close friends. 

We need the mindset to get this miracle. Jn 2:9. 10(ESV)  the master of the feast called the bridegroom and said to him, “Everyone serves the good wine first, and when people have drunk freely, then the poor wine. But you have kept the good wine until now.” I commend the couple in this matter: they made up their minds that the marriage feast would not be like everybody else’s. Some of us say. “Let it die. I am not the first, neither will I be the last.” 1Kg 19:4(ESV)  But he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness and came and sat down under a broom tree. And he asked that he might die, saying, “It is enough; now, O LORD, take away my life, for I am no better than my fathers.”  Stop that. Secondly, do not believe that Jesus will not intervene even when given reasons. Be strong in assurance as Mary was. Jn 2:4, 5(ESV)  And Jesus said to her, “Woman, what does this have to do with me? My hour has not yet come.” His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.” Until and unless you decide this marriage must live and are committed to making the God-specified sacrifices, God will not force you.

Leaving it too late Week 10, 2026

 

She was lying on the bench, and a foul smell surrounded her. Her leg was wrapped in soiled cloth with festering sores visible on the exposed parts. Inside, I learned she had diabetes, and her foot ulcer was now rotting away. She had been on herbal treatments and now presented at the hospital when it was too late to save the foot. I ordered that the patient be referred to the orthopaedic surgeons for a life-saving amputation. I feel pity for those who come like that. Something could be done if they come early. But perhaps because of ignorance (but she is a lecturer) or fear of costs (but now the money is forced to come out for a far less acceptable outcome), or for some other cause the condition is left too late. After many rebukes, the stiff-necked man will be broken incurably, without any warning. Is 55:6, 7(ESV) “Seek the LORD while he may be found; call upon him while he is near; let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; let him return to the LORD, that he may have compassion on him, and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon.

Are you like this woman? No, I don’t mean “Do you have Diabetes and have left off the right treatment too late?” but, “Do you have sin which you are treating every other way other than by repenting and coming to God in humility?”. Sin and sickness have parallels.

Some things cannot be reversed after they have gone on for too long. Some relationships have been shattered because pride was nurtured for so long, forgiveness withheld by nursing wounded egos. Genuine repentance sacrificed on the altar of “How will I be seen as weak?” Some punishments have become inevitable because of delayed repentance 2Chr36:15, 16 (ESV)  The LORD, the God of their fathers, sent persistently to them by his messengers, because he had compassion on his people and on his dwelling place.But they kept mocking the messengers of God, despising his words and scoffing at his prophets, until the wrath of the LORD rose against his people, until there was no remedy. Oh, don’t think this is Old Testament, and that such doesn’t happen in the New Testament. Jesus Christ Himself cried out saying, “Would that you, even you, had known on this day the things that make for peace! But now they are hidden from your eyes. For the days will come upon you, when your enemies will set up a barricade around you and surround you and hem you in on every side and tear you down to the ground, you and your children within you. And they will not leave one stone upon another in you, because you did not know the time of your visitation.” Lk 19:42-44(ESV) Be warned..If you get more stubborn every time you are corrected, one day you will be crushed and never recover.

Earlier in the day, I had met a young albino man with lesions on his face. They had changed colour, and being a doctor, I knew he had a real risk of cancer. He had to act now. We were alone in the shop, and as I looked him in the eye, I urged him to get to the hospital this month. Not next. He thanked me. I hope and pray he takes action. Sadly, the woman with Diabetes strongly rejected the suggestion to go to the Orthopaedic Hospital. Urgent action is needed for her life’s sake. You also take action; deal with sin in repentance before it devastates you. Sin is a deceiver, and hardens all those it deceives. Prov 29:1(KJV) He, that being often reproved hardeneth his neck, shall suddenly be destroyed, and that without remedy.