WHO GOD REALLY WANTS.

I think God does not really want me… What, how can you say that? God loves you and rejoices over you continually (Zeph 3.17). You are the apple of His eyes (Zech 2.8). I know God loves me alright, but it is not “me” He really wants. The farmer rejoices over the seed because he knows there is a plant inside.
What do you mean; why? Poor boy you do not know why? He has seen in me the template to make more of who He really wants: Jesus. "Don't I have the right to do with you people of Israel what the potter did with the clay? You are in my hands just like clay in the potter's hands Jer 18:6(GNB).
It sounds like you want to lose your personality, to be a no person. Not that, but to hand over my entire person to God for Him to transform entirely. God does not want “you” either; that “you” has been corrupted by the world and sin. If Christ is not fully formed in you, God’s plans for you, for others, and for all creation remain yet to be completed. God’s plan for us is more than conversion: My children, I am suffering birth pains for you again until Christ is formed in you Gal 4:19(ISV). If you lose your life to Jesus, only then will you find real life. For whoever has a desire to keep his life will have it taken from him, but whoever gives up his life because of me, will keep it Lk 9:24(BBE).
Even the people in this world who really long for God, they do not want to see you. Some Greeks were among those who had gone to Jerusalem to worship during the festival. They went to Philip and said, "Sir, we want to see Jesus" Jn 12:20, 21(GNB).
This sounds like a new teaching. It is not. Did you know that all creation is waiting for Christ to be fully formed in us? For the strong desire of every living thing is waiting for the revelation of the sons of God. For every living thing was put under the power of change, not by its desire, but by him who made it so, in hope that all living things will be made free from the power of death and will have a part with the free children of God in glory Rom 8:19-21(BBE) . Christ in you is the hope of glory.
So I have to develop the Christ-like nature in me eh? Not like the eastern religions who say you are a spark of God. It is God’s work- a cooperation between you and God through Jesus Christ.